Sunday, 15 July 2012
When you try your best, but you don't succeed. When tears come streaming down your face. This pretty much describes my run this morninig. How could I have come this far and now feel like everything is falling apart? As usual, when we run long distances, my mom and I wake up earlier, take the time to eat, go back to sleep to then wake up 2 hours later for our run. 10km is what we had to run today. After 1km, I burst into tears and couldn't take one more step. My hip, where it connects with my leg hurt so badly. It had been hurting for about 2 weeks max, but each time I would tell myself that it didn't hurt enough to stop running. At that moment when I couldn't go on, a load of stress rushed into my body. I can't stop running because it's my project, because people are depending on me and just because I love to run and don't want to stop. What did reassure me was when my mom told me that I could run in another race such as Oka or Grandy. But I'm still kind of upset with this whole situation. As long as I can remember, I never ever gave up. I always endure everything and always push myself to my absolute limit. That scared me a little. For now, we'll see how it goes tomorrow. We also think it might be a good idea to change my shoes. I'll keep you posted on this whole situation!